I'm so busy...

so my bday was on march 30th...no surprising, no one called me except two high school friends.



I really don't get it. I mean here's the thing, it's not a big deal, it's just that everyone knows birthdays are a big deal to me. I view them as the one day every year when people you care about are supposed to let you know they care, do something special, not the same old crap...

I had plans to kidnap my sister and go up to Carson City to hang with my dad and celebrate mine, ben's, and dad's b day all at once...

the week before, my mom writes me a long email asking me to come see her. She wants me to "spend my birthday with the family since [I] haven't done that in a while". So I changed my plans. Instead of having fun, I trekked my ass down to a dirt hole only to find out that my mm scheduled herself into meetings, meaning that I showed up as my mom was walking out the door. My dad actually said to me "she'll pencil you in" when he called to find out if I was coming. So they tell me that they want to go out to dinner, but that they're too poor, which is fine. I would have been happier with a home cooked meal, but instead, my dad takes me to a crappy MEXICAN restaurant........anyone who knows me knows I hate mexican food...or rather, I tend to shy away from it because I'm ALLERGIC to the spices...so I try to make them feel better about this by passing it off...all the other places in town were either greasy or closed when my mom had time...So I needed to tell them "oh it's ok that we're here because ever since I got sick in england I've had fewer allergies...it's like my immune system reset itself...I mean, i was the only person in my Thailand group that didn't get sick"....

My mom says: "Yeah, you were smart and got sick with CIVILIZED people..."

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My sister proceeded to choke on her soda, andben and I looked at each other and went......wtf?

oh hell know you stuck up...racist bitch....and the worst thing is that they DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE THEY SHARED IT.

OMG whatever...

and as if it's not enough... my mom has been perpetuating this preposterous rumor that I'm like, seriously...an alcoholic........ME....an alcoholic....She tells carla that she's worried about my drinking habits...and when I order a birthday CORONA...her eyes roll and she shares a "mmmhmmm" look with my sister....

Did you ever think, you heinous waste of space, that I drink in your company ONLY....because I CANNOT STAND YOU????

Who are these people to which I am tied? I never asked for this! They are the exact opposite of everything I stand for...EVERYTHING!!! They are fat, lazy, annoying, HORRIBLE VILE PEOPLE! and they have the nerve to think that just because one of them gave brith to me, that I should heed their wisdom, obey their edicts and ive two fucks about their fucking god.....

My whole life I've been good...I don't drink, I don't do drugs...I've never been arrested...I pay my taxes...I take care of people...I I've never been arrested....i have NEVER DONE ANYTHING BAD....and yet, even then....I'm some kind of drunk with an addiction to nicotine, who is like a fucking whore on a street corners.


I didn't even get a birthday cake from my mom....the staff at the restaraunt gasve me a birthday flan....a flan...a delicious flan, but a flan....my SISTER made me a cake...the fuck...

anyway...that's fucked up...so in the spirit of good birthday wishes...happy Birthday patrick...

business is going well...I guess...so far nothing is being paid for yet, but I'm hoping business will pick up....hopefully...

Thank the God I don't believe in.

ok people, so the book has been put up on webook.com for viewing before the vote...if you want to check it out easily, just go to the website, click on the section marked "vote" then go to the second page where you'll see my book called "God and the Other"

consider it, leave comments (which you can only do with an account) and rate....then on Nov 4th, vote vote vote!!!

So far in my trek to get my books published, I have hit a brick wall, not because my work isn't good, as the agents and publishers continually tell me, but because they aren't accepting any new authors in these "uncertain times". So I have found something new, a new way to get my foot in the door.

There's a site called WEbook.com and on it, you can begin a project that either allows you to post your book in chapters for feedback, or allows you to collaborate with other authors. On October 21, they will open their publishing house for a couple weeks, during which time people can enter their completed projects for voting. The top books get published by WEbook.com. I am asking you, as my friends and family, to go to WEbook.com, get an account that allows you to leave comments, search for the member "KristinaMeister" and rate and give feedback on my work. On October 21, I will be entering my book into the competition. Please vote! I will send reminders out! You could be an integral part of my success! So spread the news, tell your friends to read my work online and rate it! You'd be helping me and would get yourself a signed copy...please?

Love you guys!

Let me begin by saying, I am insulted...insulted, angry, and offended, and not even on Michael Moore's behalf...just for myself, because I cannot believe that there is a faction of this nation willing to make a film so fucking evil.

The premise, if I may, is that a prominent independent expose film maker (who looks and acts like Michael Moore and is OBVIOUSLY Michael Moore) comes to believe that he should attempt to abolish the Fourth of July, and his anti-patriotic tendencies cause the spirits of patriotism to come and haunt him, to teach him the lesson of always being patriotic.......
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"Guard with jealous attention the public liberty. Suspect everyone who approaches that jewel. Unfortunately, nothing will preserve it but downright force. Whenever you give up that force, you are inevitably ruined."..."Perfect freedom is as necessary to the health and vigor of commerce as it is to the health and vigor of citizenship. "

Patrick Henry, one of our founding fathers...

Questioning the source of information is essential to the maintenance of our mental health and the preservation of our freedom. How dare you impugn a man for seeking the truth, whose only aim is to discover the source of pain and anguish? Who cares if he makes money off of it, when what he exposes are the basest and most depraved aspects of our culture that we seek to conceal out of shame?

Do you think it's acceptable that we as a free society, do not provide free health care? "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness." We are mandated by our societal agreement to allow everyone their health...how is it then that we do not think it atrocious that in Chicago, the infant mortality rate is as high as some parts of Africa? Why is it acceptable for an elderly person to die in pain? You think it's acceptable that a child with leukemia must rely upon car washes and bake sale proceeds to pay for their treatments?

Do you find it refreshing or noble that children have now become so inundated with falsity that they would seek out the reality of blood and pain? Is it acceptable that educational institutions do not care enough to support, but fear enough to suspend? Is it alright that somehow more children suffer post traumatic stress disorder than veterans? Is it alright that parents find no way to balance their financial needs with the needs of their children, cannot find enough time in their days to supervise their children or advocate for them? Does it seem easier and comfortable for you to simply blame rock music and video games for the increasing psychosis in our society, or do you think there is a more complex cultural explanation, since there was more violence in 1935 than at pretty much any other time in history, and none of those students shot up their schools?

Is it alright with you that we're involved in a war with Iraq...that we leaped on top of Afghanistan after 9/11, that we heard justification for it in the names of those 3000 people, when the majority of the bombers on the planes were Saudi Arabian? Saudi Arabian, not Iraqi, not Iranian, not Afghani....they were Saudis...and omg, where do we get most of our oil???? So I suppose you ignorant fucks would rather assume that exposing those truths to a wider audience is somehow worthy of contempt?

How dare you mock a man who questions both parties, who holds a candle up to things he believes are unjust...."America isn't easy. America is advanced citizenship. You've gotta want it bad, 'cause it's gonna put up a fight. It's gonna say, "You want free speech? Let's see you acknowledge a man whose words make your blood boil, who's standing center stage and advocating at the top of his lungs that which you would spend a lifetime opposing at the top of yours." You want to claim this land as the land of the free? Then the symbol of your country cannot just be a flag. The symbol also has to be one of its citizens exercising his right to burn that flag in protest. Now show me that, defend that, celebrate that in your classrooms." -Andrew Shepard, American President

I don't make movies depicting slap-stick humor of which Pat Robertson is the brunt...

Now allow me to make a distinction here...I did not object to Team America: World Police's depiction of Michael Moore, why, because it was an even handed, nihilistic movie....it hated everything and that was it's charm...This movie, by its caricature of Michael Moore, belittles these important issues and is an underhanded and insidious attempt to make supporters of the "liberal agenda" feel bad about our politics...it is obviously a slanted message, a taunt, a fucking stab at a man's honesty, integrity, and honor....This is a claim that this man, one of our "leaders" is not a patriot...

well folks "A patriot must always be ready to defend his country against his government." Edward Abbey

A man must be prepared to stand up for what he believes in, and we, as his fellows must listen and choose our position, but we must never mock, cast aspersions, or slander. If we are patriots, whether we agree or not, we must not allow anyone to feel set upon or mocked...that is the complacency that begets slavery and "I know not what others may choose but, as for me, give me liberty or give me death."

The Film makers should be ashamed.

Tags: my movie reviews

I'm sooo bored and depressed...

NEW YORK (CNN) -- This week the Republicans gather for their convention. For four days, they will labor under the illusion their party is still relevant. It's not.

It is entirely fitting that the headliner for this masquerade is a feeble looking 72-year-old white guy who doesn't know how many homes he owns.

It's more than symbolic that when a million Americans are losing their homes to foreclosure, the Republican candidate for president has lost track of his holdings.

McCain surrounds himself with people like former Republican Sen. Phil Gramm who called America a "nation of whiners" and said we are only suffering a "mental recession."

That's the same problem the Republican Party has. It has lost track of what it used to stand for: small government, a disciplined fiscal policy, integrity.

In a way, the perfect storm of a rapidly changing population -- old white people aren't going to be in the majority very much longer (and isn't that who most of the Republicans are?) -- has combined with the total abdication of principles, Republican or otherwise, of arguably the worst president in the nation's history to mark the beginning of the end of the Republican Party as we know it.

Republican Congressman Tom Davis of Virginia said it best: "The Republican brand is in the trash can. If we were dog food, they would take us off the shelf."

It is so bad that more than 10 percent of the Republican members of the United States Senate aren't even bothering to attend their own party's convention. They recognize dog food when they see it.
And it almost doesn't matter who the next president is. We are witnessing the beginnings of a sea change in this country.

A wakeup call has sounded for young people who are suddenly interested enough in politics to make a difference. New voter registrations across the country are making a mockery of the old polling models.

Voter turnout in the primaries was staggering. Blacks and Hispanics feel they have a real stake in things -- and as their numbers continue to grow as a percentage of the population, their voice will only get louder. The march of the next generation is underway and the older generation has no choice but to eventually get out of the way.

Watch for the signs this November. Republicans stand to be turned out of office at every level -- from the U.S. Congress to governors' mansions and state legislatures. Republicans who remain in office will be rendered impotent by their shrinking numbers.

Republicans under George W. Bush have done a lot of damage to this country in the last eight years -- but they have done more damage to themselves. It will take a good long while and a great deal of soul searching before their brand returns to the shelves in good standing.

Don't look for it to happen in St. Paul, Minnesota. This week, Republicans will be happy in the land of make believe.

-Jack Cafferty "The Situation Room"

If you've read Richard Dawkins, then this will crack you up...I found the link for this on MYSPACE and followed it because OMG, WTF?
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"PANTHEISM AS SEXED UP ATHEISM"

Richard Dawkins, in his book The God Delusion, has described Pantheism as “sexed-up atheism.” That may seem flippant, but it is accurate. Of all religious or spiritual traditions, Pantheism - the approach of Einstein, Hawking and many other scientists - is the only one that passes the muster of the world's most militant atheist.

So what's the difference between Atheism and Pantheism? As far as disbelief in supernatural beings, forces or realms, there is no difference. World Pantheism also shares the respect for evidence, science, and logic that's typical of atheism.

However, Pantheism goes further, and adds to atheism an embracing, positive and reverential feeling about our lives on planet Earth, our place in Nature and the wider Universe, and uses nature as our basis for dealing with stress, grief and bereavement. It's a form of spirituality that is totally compatible with science. Indeed, since science is our best way of exploring the Universe, respect for the scientific method and fascination with the discoveries of science are an integral part of World Pantheism.

If you are looking for atheist groups or freethought groups or brights groups and email lists, and if you would like ones that do a lot more than just attack religion, then you may well find World Pantheism the place you were looking for.

Why go beyond straight atheism?

Does atheism need sexing up? As such, atheism answers only a single question: is there a creator God, or not? That's an important question, but if your answer is "no" it is only a starting point. You may have reached that viewpoint based on your respect for logic, evidence and science, and those too are vital values. Yet after you've reached that initial "no God" answer, all the other important questions in life, all the options for mental and emotional wholeness and social and environmental harmony, remain open.

If atheism, humanism and naturalism are to advance, then they need approaches that don’t simply leave the individual alone in the face of an increasingly threatening physical, social and international environment. They need ways of life that offer as rich a range of benefits as traditional religious ones.

Atheism is advancing. Growing numbers of people, across almost all nations, declare themselves to be non-religious or atheistic. Atheistic books on religion, like those of Dawkins, Sam Harris or Christopher Hitchens, are best-sellers.

But so far atheism and atheist groups have focused on attacking conventional religions, especially the Western theistic religions of Judaism, Christianity and Islam. It’s true that these religions often come with high costs: submission to written or priestly authority, belief in terrifying concepts such as demons, Apocalypse, Last Judgment and Hell, or the drive to impose one’s beliefs or religious values on other people. In many cases they give cachet and endurance to backward, repressive or destructive social values, developed in agrarian societies many centuries ago. And it's valuable to highlight these costs.

The attractions of religion
But negative critiques will not suffice. There are many motives beyond fear or habit why people hold fast to old religions or convert to new ones. There are many reasons besides ignorance and folly why they make religion the center of their personal and social lives.

Religions are not just a confidence trick on the part of prophets and preachers, or a self-destructive aberration on the part of believers. They have had social survival value in the past, and they continue to provide individual and personal benefits today, and these benefits are the source of their continuing numerical strength.

Religions provide communities of mutual support.

They overcome existential isolation and alienation, giving people a meaning for their lives and a sense of their place in the universe and nature.

They provide remedies for grief at the death of loved ones, and for the fear of one’s own death.

They combat the feeling of helplessness in a threatening world full of crime, conflict and disaster.

These benefits show up in the form of better health and longer life.

Of course, if you’re buying these benefits at the price of abandoning logic, ignoring evidence, believing in contradictions and impossibilities, teaching your children to fear a God who is getting ready to destroy the planet, signing on for social values that repress the rights of others, let alone sacrificing your life to slaughter those who disagree with you, then maybe the price is too high.

A naturalistic spirituality

Are these negatives an inevitable part of the bargain? They may well be an inevitable part of belief in the unbelievable or of uncritical adherence to ancient scriptures.

But is it impossible to get the benefits that conventional religions offer, without giving up one penny of the value offered by reason, science, and progressive respect for the human rights of everyone? Don’t we need approaches that offer the same range of advantages as supernatural religions – but without the costs?

Can there be such a thing as a religion without god, an atheistic religion or a religious atheism? The Buddhism of the Pali scriptures does not have a God or gods. Nor does the Taoism of Lao Tzu or ChuangTzu.

Can there be such a thing as a completely naturalistic form of “spirituality” with no supernatural elements?

At World Pantheism we have been exploring this possibility since the beginning of 2000 CE. We do so through our global and local mailing lists, through our magazine Pan, and through a growing number of local groups. We have lists about scientific and philosophical ideas, as well as about practical ways of developing our naturalistic spirituality. You can find links to these on our main page.

Our completely naturalistic Pantheism does not believe in any supernatural beings, forces or realms and is fully compatible with atheism and skepticism. As Richard Dawkins writes:

"Pantheists don't believe in a supernatural God at all, but use the word God as a nonsupernatural synonym for Nature, or for the Universe, or for the lawfulness that governs its workings."

In practice, while a significant minority of our members like and use the word God to express the depth of their feelings for Nature and the wider Universe, the majority do not use the word about their own beliefs.

There are other names for similar approaches, such as religious naturalism or naturalistic paganism. We have gone with Pantheism simply because it's the best known, and has a long pedigree.
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What?

The?

Fuck?

I love that bit about, if you've become an atheist it's probably because you love logic, but should we really have beliefs that leave people alone in the face of scary stuff???

the answer? YES. people need to grow up and realize that they are the only ones responsible for their actions...that way we won't have so many fucking crazies running around unafraid of death because they believe in an afterlife...

not just that but...asking that question is kind of like...

"Well, you've seen how the magic trick is done, but doesn't knowing just make you feel icky...maybe even a bit ashamed? Come worship with us, where we all pretend NOT to know and thus get on with our wonderfully joyful oblivious existences..."

If they had a contact link on their site, I'd rip them a new one...the point of the GOD DELLUSION was to explain WHY religion exists and show it, through intensive memetic and sociological research, to be a false assumption that people should not propgate because of what it does to people...It says nothing about confidense schemes and it does NOT rail against religion...it doesn't attack anyone....If you read that book and then wrote this article, that's just......retarded.....

it's like learning the lyrics to a song and then refusing to sing them, but instead making up your own that you insist are the real ones...

a religion for atheists..that's kind of ...well...missing the point.....a religion for atheists is...well...an organization....where they serve tea and coffee....and plan bake sales....and for the love of all that is green...don't call yourself "pantheists" because it doesn't matter what the sociological concept of pantheism is...it matters what the word means...and it means "belief in ALL gods"

What dipshits...

OMG seriously.....

ST. PAUL, Minnesota (CNN) -- Bristol Palin, the 17-year-old daughter of Sarah Palin, is pregnant and will keep the baby and marry the father, a senior aide to Sen. John McCain confirmed to CNN Tuesday.

Republican presidential candidate McCain was aware of Bristol Palin's pregnancy before he chose her mother for his running mate, the aide said.

"Senator McCain knew this and felt in no way did it disqualify her from being vice president," said the aide. "Families have difficulties sometimes, and lucky for her she has a supportive family."

The 17-year-old, a senior in high school, is about five months along, in her second trimester, according to the aide.

The aide said it was decided the campaign would reveal this information now because of rampant Internet rumors that Sarah Palin's 4-month-old baby, who has Down syndrome, was actually Bristol's.

"In the course of correcting that, we needed to get the truth out," said the McCain aide.

Sarah and Todd Palin issued a statement saying they are "proud of Bristol's decision to have her baby and even prouder to become grandparents."

"We have been blessed with five wonderful children who we love with all our heart and mean everything to us," the statement said. "Our beautiful daughter Bristol came to us with news that as parents we knew would make her grow up faster than we had ever planned."

"Bristol and the young man she will marry are going to realize very quickly the difficulties of raising a child, which is why they will have the love and support of our entire family," the statement said.

The Palins also asked the media to respect their daughter's privacy.

The McCain aide insisted a key point to keep in mind is that Bristol decided to keep the baby, a decision "supported by her parents."

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Do we really want someone running the country that has no idea what's going on right under their nose?

Makes me wonder if part of the reason McCain chose Pailin was so that he could make a big issue over the fact that her daughter is keeping an unwanted pregnancy...kind of like a poster child for the religious right's pro-life bonanza...

this makes me sick

I'm : disgusted

If only the republicans could interpret this storm as a message from god to knock off their cartoonish super-villany.

Fucking bastards...anyone who can laugh in the face of critique and still uphold evil ideas should be beaten on a stage in the center of their respective villages...

I'm sick of people not being accountable for their ideas...they think it's ok for them to have such opinions, but those opinions determine policy, and policy kills innocent people...republicans should be ashamed of themselves...

I can't believe they actually said that Palin had foreign relations experience because she lives next to russia....I mean, lets say it like it is...Obama is from Hawaii, next to Japan...and oh my god...he LIVED IN INDONESIA...jesus....has palin been to any country other than the USA?

And another thing...I'm so sick of people calling people who survive things "heroes"...surviving just makes you an effective human...it doesn't make you a hero...firemen and policemen ARE NOT HEROES...they're paid to do their jobs...they ARE brave, because bravery means confronting all that which may hurt you or frighten you, but they are NOT heroes...

the people who downed flight 99 are heroes...the guys who ran back up and got the paralyzed lady and carried her down fifty flights of stairs in the WTC, those are heroes...normal people who do abnormal things and save lives are heroes...

My father was a policeman, my uncle a firefighter, and my other uncle died in vietnam, but they were not heroes, just normal people trained to do a job....now if they'd been accountants and ran into burning buildings or firefights, then hell yes, they'd be fucking heroes...

the more we try to pander to people's egos and lift them up to this word, the less meaning this word has...soon it will become as common as love, with as many meanings...

Let's call them what they are, BRAVE, and leave it at that...is Obama a hero, no...he's brave...is McCain a hero for having been a POW, no, he was unbelievably BRAVE, but not a hero...John Kerry was Brave, but no, still not a hero....sorry...

Let's just say it how it is...

Was fantastic. he said what needed to be said in the way it needed to be said...

But FOX news didn't agree...

LMAO...right after it, i turned to FOX news to see what the enemy had to say, since we all know that FOX news was some time ago bought off by the evil super villians...and OMG what the FUCK

"The same old rhetoric"

"a wasted opportunity"

"the applause did not carry up to the top stands"

WERE WE WATCHING THE SAME SPEECH???

the crowd was CHANTING at EVERY given opportunity

"He didn't talk about Dr. King until the very end"

"It wasn't inspirational"

If it HAD been pure dribble about Dr. King and how he was black and blah blah blah, Obama would be crticized for being wishy washy and not addressing SPECIFIC details...

Fuck you FOX news, you should rot in hell for LYING when you claim to be impartial news....FUCK YOU

It was specific, inspirational, well-spoken, powerful, it was not poetry or dribble about wishy washy topics it was not rhetoric...IT WAS DIRECT AND FORCEFUL...it was his opinon and the reasons for it and what he plans to do....fuck you....

Wow, you couldn't get a funnier bureaucratic joke if you had Robin Williams as the Secretary of Defense.

Read this ( article ) from CNN.com

So my kitchen sink pipes were leaking...into the wall...and by leaking, I mean pouring water into the wall...

when the plumber, fantastic man by the way, stuck his pick into the wall to see how bad the damage was, the wall came away on the end of it...the whole wall was mold.

So the plumber hacked and picked at it and cleaned out the space under the sink between two joists, put in new pipes, and even tightened our faucet...

but this of course means that the wall has a giant hole in it from my cabinet to the outside...the owner said he would send a repair guy out to fix it and to see if the area to the left of the sink, behind the drawers would need repair...

The plumber said it was water damaged and needed someone to look at it closely...

so this morning the guy shows up, and you can imagine how upset i was to find out it was a guy I'd had over once before who did not listen to a word I said, discounted everything, and tried to suggest that the problem that predated my tenantship was somehow my fault...even going to the extreme of telling me that it wasn't water condensation on my walls causing my paint to bleed down the wall due to their lack of ventilation in the bathroom, but was in fact, due to me painting the wall with "a dripping paintbrush" as if I don't know how to paint a wall...as if every other wall in my house was not expertly painted including the mural...as if the paintings on the wall didn't express that I am an excellent painter...as if I even used a brush at all on that wall, which I did not

anyway, when I realized it was him, I was just like "ok let him do his job and just ignore him" which I did...for about 45 minutes...

so then I went in and said "hey how's it going" with a smile on my face, determined not to be annoyed...

he says "it's good, I'm almost done!"

I looked in and saw that he had built wooden patches for the wall, which he was going to plaster over, which was great, but then I asked, "what about the water damaged piece behind the drawers?"

he goes "what?"

I explained to him what the plumber had said and pointed out the mold and water damage to him, while he did that annoying talk-over-you-till-you-stop-talking business, the "no no no no no no no see, it's like this" without listening to a word I said...

He taps the wall and says "See it's fabric is hard, it's a hard material"

"I said yes, but can't you see the mold?"

"What mold"

"The black stuff right there, that's mold"

"I'm not supposed to clean mold"

"You do realize mold is a biohazard right?"

"I can't fix that without ripping out the whole cabinet"

"You could just cut out that piece and patch it too, no big deal."

"I don't have to do that."

"Well, when the owner asked you to come out, don't you think he meant for you to fix the problem properly and not do a half-job?"

Now keep in mind, every time I speak, he's still talking over me...

He says "I'm done" or something like that, I turned away and said, "well do whatever you're going to do, but I'm pretty sure the owner is going to have something to say about you not finishing the job..."

Now I have to admit, at this point, my memory is a bit hazy, because what follows put me into such a state of shock that I honestly deleted my short term memory...I don't know how it happened, but he said something about me getting an attitude with him or something...

I said "I don't have an attitude, I'm just telling you what I think the owner is liable to say when I call him and tell him..."

He keeps talking over me so finally I finished by saying...

"Please do NOT talk over me while I am speaking...just stop it and listen..."

He starts to cut me off talking over the top of me saying that he doesn't talk over the top of people...

So I cut him off and said, "Look, I've dealt with you before, and I know how you act...you hear only what you want to hear and do not listen...so shut up and hear me when I say that this is not a complete job...I've rented properties and made repairs my whole life, so don't think I don't know what the hell I'm talking about..."

He starts talking over me again and I just keep on talking even louder, cuz fuck him...

and then he said the phrase that sent me into fight or flight syndrome and caused me to want to hack off his head....


"I want to talk to your husband right now."

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For a moment I just stood there like....oh no he didn't......and the strong black women in me came out and I put my hands on my hips, glared down at him and said...


"My husband doesn't run this houshold, I do. My husband wouldn't know how to plug a wall if I put the tools in his hands. My husband wasn't here when the plumber came, I was. I'm the one you deal with, and if you're going to disrespect me in my own house, you can get the fuck out."

Of course, he tried talking over me again and I just lost my mind....I said, "fine, you know what, how about I go upstairs and get the manager to sort this out, how about that?"

He says "I'm calling cedar properties and we'll see..."

"Go ahead and do that, but i will be calling them too, because you're a liar and I've no interest in letting them only hear your side of this discussion"

so I went outside, called his boss and had a conversation with him about it...

he was nice...it was fine...but while I was on the phone with him, the guy comes out carrying his stuff, slams it down next to me...makes AS MUCH NOISE AS POSSIBLE while packing everything RIGHT NEXT TO ME....and then storms out...

I'm so angry I'm shaking...and I really don't think he got why I was so pissed off...

anyway, I go in to see what state the work was left in and what do I see?......


he had taken every single piece he'd put in...even the braces to screw the plugs into....out....out....as in...undid everything he had done....completely...


so I took the stuff he forgot set it outside my door and locked him out...


called the owner back and explained to him the problem and apologized, he said "you have nothing to apologize for"...

but anyway, how dare he????

how dare he demand to see my husband, like I'm some crazy hysterical broad and he need to tame me or something....how fucking dare he.....insulting my intelligence...fuck him...


there were other things at play too...he's a new asian immigrant, which says nothing except that there might be cultural underpinnings...and I was standing while he was seated on the floor...and maybe he has issues with an angry mother or some shit...

whatever...all I know is...you don't talk down to me in my fucking house...

and you don't flip me off by undoing all the work you had done and storming out...

fuck you....If he'd been standing up I would have punched him in the face....

so the owner is coming tomorrow to view the damage...whatever...

So I spent the day emotionally traumatized, cleaning my house from top to bottom....

this week has totally sucked so far...

This will be my somewhat different spin on vampires, with an "I" not a "Y".

This is only ( the beginning ) I don't have it all mapped out yet, but I like where it's going and I'm going to keep working on it.

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You know for a very long time, there were two people who voted their consciences in the senate...Ted Kennedy, because he could get re-elected if he knife raped a nun, and John McCain...a POW who could also get re-elected even if he came into the congress hyped up on smack...

but recently, since throwing his hat into the ring, our friend Mr. McCain has seemingly either gone bat-shit crazy, or sold his snow white soul to satan...

Yesterday a reporter asked McCain if he realized that the amount of exports from the USA to Iran had, during Bush's term, grown by a factor of ten...

McCain said he couldn't comment on that fact, because he hadn't heard it before...

the reporter went on to ask why we were still exporting goods to Iran, if they were "the bad guys"...and mentioned that the largest export was in fact, cigarettes...

McCain proceeded to laugh and then said "perhaps its a way of killing them"

...

I thought that democracies, by the very logic that makes them a democracy, were forced to see all other nations as nascent republics...since when does being believers in freedom mean we're entitled to laugh and joke about genocide?

yeah...hilarious McCain...go fuck yourself...

and thanks democrats for knife raping the fourth amendment...i personally don't believe in the right to privacy...but you know what, the idea of being able to take Bush and his lackies to court and impeach the fuckers kinda made me salivate....

The only reason I can fathom that the democrats would support that law and NOT impeach Bush is that every gun-toting, trailer-dwelling asshole without an educated opinion would be shouting that it was a democratic revenge plot for Clinton's "well-deserved" prosecution...not the kind of press you want coming into an unprecedented election....but even so...they should have hung him out to dry and minted a coin in commemoration...

douche fags...

if you're interested, ( chapter 2 )

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This is the tight and neat form of this chapter, and I love it. Let me know what you think. I just recently sent this to Bruce Cambell's agent, and am hoping to get a favorable reply.

( Chapter 1 )

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Book editing is hard.

It takes a long time, but thanks to the literary agent's help, i think my book is finally getting AWESOME...lik I envisioned.

I thought maybe I'd repost the first 13 chapters completely edited here...

any thoughts?

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omg...I can't believe how busy i am right now...

My massage school is doing anatomy right now and it's like bwaaaahhh....I know the anatomy, but we have to learn all sorts of stuff, like when the neck is laterally flexed to the right, which muscles are antagonistic and agonistic....what are their origins and insertions, and what other Ranges of Motion are they responsible for???


seriously

so I'm busy with that, Mayofascial therapy, a presentation i have to give on may 10th, the externship I'm doing ever monday wed. and friday before school for two hours where i work for free....and I have clinic on saturdays......


but then on top of that, i'm futsing around with SSI for short changing me for the last three months by 200 dollars...


but i have my own porable massage table, chair, and I'm building up a private clientèle ever so slowly...

and in my spare time I'm making things, cleaning my fucking house, and trying to balance all my school stuff...


but i saw the movie "In Brujes" last weekend and it was fucking great, but not what I expected...it was all about redemption when I was expecting a shoot em up kind of movie...it's the only role I've ever liked collin ferrel in...

anyway...

my life is busy...but i'm stil rockin' the hawk...mo hawk that is...